It has been more that a year since i have been single and i already hate the feeling. For some reason, I have been having dreams about tiff the 2 nights of my birthday and everything seems to remind me of her.. The thing is I don't think i even miss her as such... I just miss being in a relationship.. Someone to hold, someone to pamper, someone to spoil...
Everywhere I look I see, couples and relationship everywhere.. I guess i just get jealous...
However, i guess more importainly, I should really concentrate on my studies... only a couple more mths before i graduate... And i guess when that time comes, i will be able to do anything i want.. Fast cars, girls, fun...
P.s I think i have found a gal who is goin to be perfect for me.. lol...
xx
1:29 PM
Ian | 1:29 PM
Fuck it.. Bros over hoes!!!! Bitches, they come, they go... and throu the thick and thin, i've always got my boys... Both in singapore and London.. Dispite all the good times i have had with Tiff and Dawn, it still doesn't come close to the good times i've had with all my boys.. They are always there for me when i need help and to cheer me up.. or even just being silly..
1:42 PM
Ian | 1:42 PM
Right now all i can say is FUCKING BITCH! Met up with tiff today to get back my stuff... The last thing i remembered her sayin was she did not want to be in a relationship at this point of time.. 4 mths down the road and she has a boyfriend.. Fuck knows for how long it has been already..
10:22 AM
Ian | 10:22 AM
Have just retrued from Lotty's birthday outing to the bowling alley.. Played something like 5-8 games.. was good fun!!! However dispite all that, the last tiem i played bowling was with the boys back in singapore.. Thoes were the days...
6:05 PM
Ian | 6:05 PM
Just back from dorset... That was a good get away from the big city life... Great to get away.. Went to the Bournemouth beach.. I think i actually got a suntan/mild sunburn.. that is the way u do it.... More importaintly, heaps of hot chickies at the beach... couple topless.. hehehe score... lol.. now finally on holiday.. a much deserved rest.. only 3 more mths till the next holiday.. too bad there is the little problem of exams till then... shit fu*k bullocks... At least i got my baby Estella here to help me along...
1:26 PM
Ian | 1:26 PM
It has probably been more than a year or so since i had updated my blog... It feels like it has been so long since I have been home. I miss all my brothers and sisters in singapore.. Even thou we have not been to Sentosa since sunset bay closed down, it was just the fact that we knew that beach was just around the courner and could access it whenever we wanted. More importaintly, it was not where i was, it was who i was with. Miss you all!! xxxx
2:07 PM
Ian | 2:07 PM
2:41 PM
Ian | 2:41 PM
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2:37 PM
Ian | 2:37 PM
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I know the right girl is out there somewhere.. I guess i better start lookin eh!!! Get out there boy! Lol... No is just a stupid 2 letter word and i can only learn from rejection.. besides, its their lost... Dam stupid society's conditioning...
Today went to the driving range with chris and lotty(fred's gf).. Fred has gone back home for his bday.. Was good fun.. Got to vent some anger by smackin the shit out of the balls... lol... was a good day....
She din actually say it was her bf but i could figure it out by the fact she has a photo of him on her phone... and at the point of making arrangements of her comin down to pass my stuff, the 'friend' was ready to leave meaning he was already at her house at that point of time.. I may be an underachiever but i m not a retard.. The worst thing is she could have just told me she has a bf.. and not just say i m comin down to london with 'a friend'. I guess unless she has something to hide... Fuck it.. She is not worth my time anyway..
Anyway i had spend today with chris and fred, went to the old skool ford meet in the morning and was kool.. got to see all the other fords and got some idea of what i could do to my car.. Then went to play pool in bayswater.. overall was a good day with the boys...
I need to hit something now....
Althou i have been single for a couple mths now, i sometimes stilll feel shitty that i m not in a realationship... I mean i am quite 'enjoyin' single life.. to an extend.. but there are still times i just want to lay beside someone and get a cuddle and a kiss once in a while.. I just miss the feeling of being wanted... On the other hand, being single has its benifits... I get to do what i want, when i want.. Its alright to flirt around and once i have the guts to, pick up chicks.. lol... However, there is something stoppin me... i guess its the fear of rejection.. Everyone is scared of being rejected.. But i must learn myself that rejection is part of life and i can only learn by tryin!!!
Sentosa soon!!?!?!?!
xxxx
p.s If anyone still reads this.... HI...
Well life in London now is shit boring. It is now the easter holidays so everyone has gone home and the only chance i get human contact is when i m in clinic.. Of course I could go out but i would just look like a perv if i sat in a pub or restaurent alone..
Today, the weather was sunny and clear today unlike the usual dull English weather, so i made the most of it.... and stayed home on my couch.. (again with the don't want to look desprate and lonely excuese) Last week, I went phone shoppin and got me a new phone.. An O2 XDA orbit. so for a week i had 2 phones. But today, for some strange reason both stopped workin. Not sure how long that will last. No one is goin to call me anyway. booo...
I am soo bored at home i am actually lookin forward to clinic and hopefully the pub after. Well i m off to look for more food to eat.. CAtch yu all later.. see u soon...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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